Whats wrong with me, am i crazy?
Question by elmoroxme2: Whats wrong with me, am i crazy?
When I was in 3rd grade, my mom got messed up from surgery and can now never be fixed ever again. She will constantly be in pain when she walks, and it will only get worse. Of course, this had caused problems between my two parents and my sister. My whole family, expect for me got diagnosed with depression. My sister also got diagnosed with Bipolar disorder. She took a lot of her anger out on our whole family, including me. She would often call me fat and ugly, and it would really hurt. It caused my future shyness and awkwardness nowadays, but thats a different story. Anyways, whenever she did this I wouldn’t say anything back. I used to run to my room and just scream into my pillow, or punch stuff and just start crying. This started in 5th grade. In the summer of 7th grade, my mom left our family for a week. My dad started taking his anger out on my sister and I a lot and would start flipping out and throwing things. I understand why he did this though because he had been under a lot of stress. After a week, my mom came back but mom later left again for a few weeks. It got even worse with my dad taking his anger out on me. He ended up punching a hole in my sisters door. No one got hurt though, and he made sure no one did. He would never hurt us. That day my mom left again, I went into my room and cut my self all over my ankle from the stress. I then started cutting when I got angry, or sad. I loved the feeling of having cuts over me because I guess it gave me satisfaction. In 9th grade, aka now, my parents got divorced. My anger has gotten really bad and if I get angry over the littlest thing, I start breaking down and crying. I cry over everything. I cry when I think of life, and everything that could possibly go wrong. I then start shaking and crying, and breathing really heavily. Today I looked in the mirror and started freaking out because I saw myself but it wasn’t actually me. I don’t know how to explain it. I always put a smile on for people at school and stuff and just recently started showing all these emotions to my dad. I can’t control it. Whenever he talks I just get really angry and start digging my nails into my skin. What is wrong with me? Am I going crazy?
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Answer by Helpful Guy
Self-harm, cutting (or burning) is an ADDICTION. You are powerless over your addiction. There is nothing to be ashamed of. You are obsessed with it. You do it compulsively. There is only one way out… TREATMENT. You can’t do it by yourself. One treatment is to go to a rehab that specializes in treating cutting and burning addictions. You will live there for several weeks to several months. Another treatment is going to what is called an Intensive Outpatient Program, or IOP. Another treatment is going to a psychotherapist. A psychotherapist is called a therapist. So, three treatments are: a rehab, an IOP, or a therapist. Please pick one.
I have been diagnosed by more than one psychiatrist with Major Depression. Before I started on medication to help me, I used to stay in bed all day. All I wanted to do was curl up into a little ball and let the whole world go on without me. I wouldn’t be able to shower for days at a time. I thought pessimistically about everything. I was extremely angry towards my ex-wife for kidnapping my children and moving all the way to Florida with them. I mean, I was so angry that I had thoughts of buying a gun and shooting her! All day, all I thought about was how much I hated her. I had to be prescribed medication called antidepressants. My whole personality changed when I started taking them. My ex-wife didn’t bother me, I wanted to go out of the house in the morning, and it felt good to take a shower and change into clean clothes everyday. I began to think optimistically about everything! So, go see a psychiatrist. A psychologist cannot prescribe meds to you, however a psychiatrist can. If you think that the world is too much to handle and you feel overwhelmed with life, then maybe inpatient treatment in the psychiatric unit at a hospital for a little while will help you get better! I’ve been in a psych unit before and it really helped me a lot!
If you go on the internet, you can SEARCH for phone numbers to FREE COUNSELORS who can listen to you anytime of the day or night! Go to any search engine and just type in “free counseling hotline”… (I’m not allowed to tell you the numbers because it will violate the Answers Community Guidelines and/or Yahoo! Terms of Service.)
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